Dear Mama---Its been almost ten years since youve been gone and yet it seems like only yesterday. I miss you more and more as each day passes. I try to remember the good memories and not to think of the last years that you spent on this earth sick and in misery im sure, we were selfish and did not want to let you go, I guess ultimately I kept hoping that there would be a miracle and that some day you were gonna be like you once were. you'd get up out of that bed and walk and talk again and you could hold me and tell me that everything would be ok just like you did my whole life. My only regret is that you did not get to see my two babies born in 99 and 2003. I tell them about you alot and how you went to go live in Heaven and how very very special of a person you were. I love you Mama, I know that when Daddy died you were waiting to meet him and youre both together now like it should be. I hope youre proud of me and Mark and just know that not a day goes by that I dont wish to talk to you or to see you. I could not have asked for a better mother nor will I ever be as good of a Mom as you were, they dont come better-I love you