CJ, I remember, like it was yesterday, the day that you came into my life. You couldn't wait to come into the world. I went to work Monday morning and realized that I was having contractions. You were due to be delivered by C-section on Wednesday. Called the doctor, who wanted to see me ASAP. I drove myself to the Dr's Office in Joliet and he sent me to Silver Cross Hospital immediately for an emergency C-section. I had to drive myself to the hospital. I called your dad from the Dr's office. He was out on a test drive and Grandpa Charlie told me that he would tell him to drive to Silver Cross as soon as he got back. Your dad must have driven at least 80 mph to get there to see your birth. We were so overjoyed when we heard that first cry. You were a beautiful baby. You continued to bring us so much joy through your toddler years. You were "hell on wheels" and "all boy", and we loved you dearly. It is terribly quiet here now without you. I miss your smile and your hugs. I miss the talks we used to have. You had so many goals for yourself that you'll never be able to accomplish but I hope that you can give us your strength to get through this. I think about how happy we all were on Christmas morning with the matching hoodies. Those pictures are like gold to me. Who would have thought that we would have to deal with your death that night. I often wish that I would have made you stay home that Christmas night, but the excitement in your voice was my deciding factor to let you go. You loved to be with your friends. I hope that you didn't suffer when you were thrown from the car. The whole community has been so thoughtful and loving. We didn't realize that you touched so many lives. And your life continues in 5 other people. I keep hoping and praying everyday that we will hear from some or all of those people. I'm sure that God has given you angel wings. You were always doing good deeds for people. I love and miss you dearly everyday and I can't wait until we can be together again. Keep in touch with us. We'll be watching for signs. We love you CJ. Love, Mom