"i'm just so tired wont you sing me to sleep and fly through my dreams so i can hitch a ride with you tonight and get away from this place have a new name and face i just aint the same without you in my life late night drives, all alone in my car i can't help but start singing lines from all our favorite songs and melodies in the air singin life just aint fair sometimes i still just can't believe you're gone and im sure the view from heaven beats the hell out of mine here and if we all believe in heaven, maybe we'll make it through one more year down here feel your fire, when its cold in my heart and things sorta start remindin' me of my last night with you i only need one more day just one more chance to say i wish that i had gone up with you too you wont be comin' back and i didn't get to say goodbye i really wish i got to say goodbye and im sure the view from heaven beats the hell out of mine here and if we all believe in heaven maybe we'll make it through one more year i hope that all is well in heaven cuz its all shot to hell down here i hope that i find you in heaven cuz i'm so... lost without you down here you wont be coming back and i didn't get to say goodbye i really wish i got to say goodbye" LYRICS FROM SONG VIEW FROM HEAVEN/YELLOWCARD "Last night I had a dream that you were still here, you smiled that smile and suddenly seemed near. I woke up this morning and for a moment is was real, you were still here and pain I could not feel. But then it hit me the reality so cruel, the emotions run wild so angry so upset, why didn't he know you werent supposed to go yet? You could always see threw those fake and pretend, you were a genuine soul, a kind heart and a friend. Seems like yesterday we were all together laughing, as we will again one day,until then in our hearts we remember in every way. Why you had to go the answer we will never know,may we see you in the sky when a rainbow begins to show, Or when there's an extra set of footprints out in the snow. Maybe at the end of a Summer's day when the sunlight begins to fade, you'll be there hiding out amongst the shade. Or on a dark night when our path is lit only by the moon, we'll stop look up and know we'll see you again soon. Words go unspoken and hearts will remain broken. Always we will hold dear to us the memories you have given,its hard but cant hold onto what might have been. Your little strut and your bubble butt, your deuces and farts, your sweet smile and laugh. There are words and actions we cant ever take back. You were like no other one of a kind! You were so talented, ambitious, & had such a beautiful mind. Once you asked "what kind of outcome would there be if I would pass on", I said too many people to imagine and I was not wrong. So many people who's lives that you've touched we will never understand and we miss you so much. You made us laugh, you made us cry , I know you'd want us to wipe that tear from our eye. So we will be strong and try to carry on in remembrance of you will get lost in a song, we raise our Busch Lights to the ceiling and all get a good feeling that you are watching from above, and send us your eternal love. Wish that we could once more feel your hand, want to fall down but yet you make us stand. Your words of encouragement your strong will to be great, we now know that we all have our fate. You loved, you laughed, you accomplished more than most, but it was too early to go away. In each of us you will live on, and our hearts you will stay. May the wind always be at your back, may the sun always shine upon your face, and may the winds of destiny carry all of who you love to dance with the stars."WRITTEN BY ERICA MY LETTER TO YOU: Each day I open my eyes and you are still not here. Every night I try to close my eyes but you just wont disappear. Last night I saw you in my dreams again,This time you were just sitting with me laughing having a great time. I saw the freckles on your face that have started to fade in my mind. I started to remember the details of your features that I swore Id never forget not even over time. I saw the imperfections of your teeth the speckles that blend into the color of your eyes. The way the fine lines around your eyes crinkled when you’d laugh. The mole on your hand. We had matching moles on our left hand.Same place same color same shape. I remember the day you asked me to stay and not to go.I swear I knew that I was never going to see you again. You made me a CD and you didn’t sign it, you always signed them.But this one you didn’t, so I wrote on it,put the date on it and watched you wave goodbye in the doorway as I drove by you and smiled for the last time. We talked about death a few times.I asked you if you were scared and you said, “no”.We spoke about Hollys funeral and how many people were there and how many people loved her.You said to me”How many people do you think would come to my funeral?”I said “hundreds, no thousands,your practically a celebrity”.We laughed about that.And now I cry about it. You hated when I cried.You made fun of me.Tried to make me laugh.You always did some how.Id give anything for you to come back.You were my first love and best friend.I fell asleep at your grave not to long ago.I cried myself to sleep.I had a dream about you about a week after you passed.You called me up and told me to come over.I thought it was a cruel joke but I went.You opened the door and gave me a hug hello.I started crying and you didnt know why.I explained that I thought you were dead and so did everyone else.You convinced me that was nuts and we went out to your favorite place where all of your friends would be.We walked in and a few people said hello to me but not to you.After a while you said"why is everyone ignoring me?" i said "Jason they cant see you.You are not really here.Your gone."You looked into my eyes and had this look,like you had faced the reality.You grabbed my hand and faded away.For a while I was afraid to go to sleep because those dreams about you made me so sad but now I look forward to them.They remind me of things my mind is starting to forget.But my heart wont ever forget.I know I will see you again someday.They say the pain will go away soon.Its been over a year and hurts so bad.All I can do is keep your memory alive.Somehow feel like you exsist,even though you dont walk the earth any more you can still feel present - forever and always, you will. YOU LEFT BEHIND SO MUCH.MOTHER SUE,FATHER LEE,BROTHER JARED,SISTER JANEL,A GIRLFRIEND,YOUR BEST FRIENDS,YOUR STUDENTS,AUNTS, UNCLES,GRANDMOTHERS,COUSINS,NEPHEW,GOD CHILD,SO MUCH,TOO MUCH.Anyone who knew you knew that there is nobody in the world like you.you had the greatest smile ever.the funniest laugh,the best sense of humor and a heart of gold.You can not be replaced.So what do we do now?All I think we can do is remember and never forget and do all that we can to keep your memory alive.To all who loved him,honor his memory.Be strong & try not to be so sad.You know thats what he would say if he could.Until we meet him again-we hold him in our hearts.A SON,BROTHER,GRANDSON,NEPHEW,UNCLE,COUSIN,GODFATHER,TEACHER,COACH,BEST FRIEND,FRIEND.The greatest person Id ever known.Rest Jason.We love you.